Before complete vanishment, the moon allows one glimpse into the future

As a cherry to my day, I encountered my first cadaver of the greatest extent today. The blood rushed out of my body and was replaced with vomit and panic to the extent of being frozen in time. Beatrice, as she has now been named, was a girl who died of lung cancer and had at least 1 fake boob. She she seemed small but maybe a totally of 35 years old and 5'5 maybe an inch or 2 taller. But she was there to be studied and for us, she was there to be rehydrated and packaged like a fish out of water.

Te fragility of her body as the palm of my hand was resting on her spine and the occipital portion of her skull resting in my hand like a baby who no longer breathes sent me into auto- pilot faster then my living heart could beat. Jennifer and Josh were so cavalier and casual about moving Beatrice as if she was a big porcelain china doll yet I couldn't stop admiring the still lifelessness of this once vivacious female. Aside from the smell once she was wrapped my queasiness subsided and I was able to help but the image of her closed eyes and raw body will probably stay a nightmare in even my happiest dreams. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right? Hopefully ;-) G-money OUT

Wishing for the sun, the moon begins to set on the horizon

So talking with Joswesome today was very reassuring. While I was tediously cutting dialysis bags into exactly 18 cm, I threw out the topic and he was helping me fine tune to biological details. He seemed rather interested either because it's not a normal project or by the fact that it can go deeper than I previously thought. Either way I'm excited he's excited. Now to impress Chapster...

Josh and I discussed that most importantly would be making sure that I have a good control such as similar school and life situations.

(A Job, 12 credit hours, Age, Family size, Amenities / material possessions, Etc....)

And Josh also mentioned people in sports as oppose to not in sports. But along with the control there is the participant requirements. I know I would have to have questionnaires and pretty much ask every single student so I can find the set of people who fit in my criteria. More importantly to the whole project is the data collection.

Participants would have to meet weekly with me and I would ensure and promise a confidence so everyone can feel at ease but also have the subjects each have a journal of information. Such as amount of sleep, studying, work hours etc...

Josh had an interesting idea of seeing if we can measure the stress of each participant as well. Between video interviews, first hand journals from each subject group, and the end of the semester results, the project would be amazingly thorough and hopefully accurate. Josh did say it's not in my best interest to be a subject myself so I'll take that as a sign to just be the scientist :-) hopefully it works out. I would love to be testing behavior sciences this semester. But if not I have back ups ;-)  G- money OUT :-)

Not a light in the sky but you know the darkness will end

SO, I was taking dance classes this weekend and wound up signing up for 10 classes. (only 70 bucks, STEAL) But that and then getting my reminder that i start Co-coaching a kickball team starting on the 13th, I realized i'm quickly running out of time. With my Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays blocked out because I am in class from 9 AM until 7 PM and then Tuesday and Thursdays from 9 AM until 5 PM, coach kickball on tuesdays 6-9 and dancing Thursday 5:30-7. I've run completely out of time, and I realize this while I'm hanging out at my boyfriends house and finishing some calculus homework. I just started this amazing relationship commitment and won't even have time to see him come closer to midterms and i'm swamped upto my chin in studying.

THAT LOOOOONG story, and shameless ego stroking, leads me to this research question:

How does your relationship status effect your studies and ultimately your G.P.A. ?

My first Semester of college, I had recently ended a very long relationship and put my energy into being awesome at school. With my G.P.A. at 3.8 currently, I feel very proud of how my efforts are being rewarded. So that leads me to ask the question my first of 3 semesters in single, great GPA, will that change as i try and associate more time to my boyfriend and ultimately less to my studies?

I, as well as my boyfriend Brian, am hoping that my GPA is unaffected if not raised by the end of this semester. Having him enthusiastically wanting to help me study for both my Spanish and Anatomy classes, as well as assist in any way he can with my research project, I'm fairly certain my hypothesis will be accurate. But how do other couples, in different relationship intensity, deal with the stressfulness of school, or are their relationships secretly self destructive?

So that's where I start and I'm going to talk with Chapster and Joswesome on Monday to see if this is the type of project i can do. It's not exactly anything that I'm studying but the interest is obviously personal and interpersonal relationships are the complete opposite of my studies but i would enjoy it greatly. So we will see how it goes. :-) G Money OUT lol

Pre dawn

Today was a easy and fun day. I met Matt today cuz I will probably be going to see him if I need help finding items for the labs. And I was assigned the research project which I'm very excited about. I would love to try cross pollenating fruits to get like hybrids of strawberries and raspberries or something super fantastic like a snozzberry ;-) but I'm not 100 percent sure I will have enough time to grow so many plants. But I'm thinking more about a project similar to my major, Bio engineering so maybe something robotish or muscle abilities of amputees. I'm not sure yet but my mind is racing with ideas. :-) I can't wait to get started.

Now to return to my studies this semester. Calculous, physics, chemistry oh my! Lol